sad and why?

sad because of missing you.
thanks for helping me through many tough circumstances
but i cant give u anything
i want to change my life for you as this is the precious thing to me
but it cant reach
as i am not a guy
what can i do?i want you to have a good life
lonely........
outside busy but inside is lonely with tears
what should i do.....
why
why???????
please tell me why?

Holiday mood

Quite a long time i have not been here, it was because of the bad streamyx. Sometimes it can connect but most of the time it was unable to do so. I hate lagged line and rainy day, because i still couldn't finish downloading my anime " La Corda doro", i still left 2 and half episodes. It is kinda of annoying. Never mind, i intended to buy the anime so that i not need to worry about the streamyx matter.

Incidentally, yesterday i just came back from Genting with Hui's family. Although we were unable to go to theme park due to the foggy outside and raining as well, but we were very enjoyed the Richi Ren's concert. It was nice and Richi Ren was so friendly to the audiences. Besides, the atmosphere was so great and the songs were popular to sing. Hence, we sang together with him. It was really enjoyable and i wish i could attend to concert again.

Perhaps of the holiday mood, it made me so moody this morning, it seemed that i had not enjoy enough during this trip and i would like to be in genting again with Hui. I wanted to play and play and play. Maybe most of my times is used for study, sleep and eat, therefore once i go out then i not willing to come back again. haha,how bad am i! I can conclude that, i am becoming lazy now........

La corda doro

Some of my friends asked me to put some pictures on it, but truly to say, i really don't have any nice pictures to show , besides i rarely take pictures. In the future, i may not say i won't but i will try my best to find some nice pictures to show to you all. Sigh, people like me so ugly where to have nice picture to show? I try to find if there is any. Ha

These few days, Hui and i really addicted to an anime called " La Corda doro". It is very nice and the story is saying that there were few musicians who were be selected in taking part in a school competition. The music is very nice and i like Chopin very much. Unfortunately, these few days the network was down and i hardly opened the movie. Hence, to console myself, i went to youtube to find some Chopin's piano songs to fulfill my desire. It is nice to hear and i like it very very much. If you are interested in this anime, please go to the www.crunchyroll.com to check it out. Nice nice~~

Lastly, i haven't finished my summary, so i need to do it now.bye

haha

wahahaha........ quite a long time i was not entering to my blog, actually there were some reasons behind, but hardly to tell you all, it is a secret. These few days, i was in an awful situation because i lost my energy to study and also my appetite. But luckily, i still have my best friend,Hui, to support me and she told me not to be too stress. But now it is too late, i intend to go to bed soon. so good night, and see you tomorrow.

Love them

Today i went out with my grandmother and her friend for a whole day. Firstly, we went to A Yat Bao Yu to have our lunch and after that we went to Amcorp Mall to get my grandma's thing done. After finishing, my grandmother insisted to go to Sri Petaling to buy some textiles. Hence the whole day i did not really study. Besides, the whole day trip really made me so tired even though it was not rushing. In spite of it was tiring, i still need to make it worthy to join this trip. Therefore, i was thinking what is the worthiness that i found in this trip.

I was thinking that when the time i grow old, will i same as my grandmother and her friend? The whole day sitting in front of the television and chasing for Astro on Demand? If Astro on Demand is not available, then watches channel 301~314. If no Astro, then finds my granddaughters and grandsons to play with me. Since we have a great aged gap, will it be hard for us to communicate?If most of my friends disappeared in this world ahead of me, then what should i do without them? Or my husband died before me, then will i be so lonely? If i am single, then i may not have my grandsons and granddaughters to accompany, so how will my life be? lonely, boring, scary or happy?

Looking at my grandma, i feel i am so proud to be her granddaughter because i am able to take care of her and love her. My grandma has difficulty in walking and we are responsible to look after her and protect her from falling down. Lots of people use a very peculiar eyesight to look a me and at 1st i was very shy and a bit unwilling to do so. But gradually i found that helping my grandma is not a shy thing, conversely, it is a good thing. It can improve our relationship and she is now more care for me.

Sometimes, looking forward is hard because we couldn't foresee so many thing, but we can observe our grandparents then we will have an brief idea about it. Try to love the one who beside you, and help them if they need your help. Without them, you will not be in this world. LOVE THEM with you own heart.

my dream

A few days before, Hui and i had a long long call. It last about 1 and half hours.

We discussed our future and i reminded her to check for the studying fees, whilst she reminded me to check for the education loans. Although this might not be happening soon but i could easily feel that we are so eager to be together. What i am saying here is we are so looking forward to further our study in overseas. Furthermore, we can cook for each other and help each other to clean the room. Besides, we can shop and exercise together. The most important thing is we can celebrate any festivals together especially birthday. How wonderful is it! i feel like going there now. haha~~
(One thing to emphasize, i am not a lesbian :) )

In addition, we can study together, learn together, sing together and play together. Sometimes we can make jokes of each other, and laugh like a children. If the time is allowed, we may go for traveling and find good foods around. If sometimes i feel sad, she can pacify me and help me go through the difficulties or vice versa. If i angry, she can act like a baby to make me happy or conversely. We share all our sadness and happiness together and live like a heaven. haha. Am i thinking too much? i think so.

I have lots of things to say and i am afraid that i may not finish all of them. But most vital thing for us now is to seize our dreams and do not let it go. Sometimes I really scared that i couldn't achieve our destination and it will make me sad. Hence, i really hope that it is not just a dream and it can come true.

Lastly, let's me make a wish to our future....................

Today

Today was quite a happy day. This morning I went out with my best friend, Hui, and we have our breakfast in Ah Seng wan tan mee restaurant.The Ah Seng wan tan mee is located at SS15 and the taste is not bad. Quite a lot of people like his wan tan mee but it is a bit dry, overall the taste is nice to eat. Since Hui’s parents brought me there for so many times, hence I know the place quite well. If you really want to go there, you can ask me and I will show you the direction. After having our breakfast, we both went to the comic shop at SS15 to borrow books. Today, I only managed to borrow one book, compared to yesterday I have 4 books. Besides, the DVD shop did not open and Hui’s ‘Slam Down’ has to wait for other day.

I am hereby to say thank you to Hui for accompanying me for breakfast and bringing me to borrow some books. Hence, I won’t be too boring in the evening after struggling P and MLC. I still could see some handsome comic guys and pretty ladies to ‘Destress’. I would like to cheer ~~~ friend forever.

Today lesson is like usual but I am very enjoyed. I am very happy to know that teacher has a 6-months old baby. You know why? Because I may have chance to play with her baby and it is fun. Actually I am quite a long winded person, and some of my friends do not like that. Sometimes they seeked for my advice when they do not understand the question, but what I would do was telling them the whole story for the related principle and using this to lead to the problem. Hence, some of them would get annoy and they would rather find someone. Yes, I admitted that I was really a long winded person. But I am trying my best to reduce my sentences and make it more precise. My teacher teaches me how to write a precise memo and it will help me to be less long winded. Ha

Anyways, I am very tired now and my eyes keep looking at my bed. Good night for anyone and have a nice dream.